Category: Me

No Choice, Really.

 I’ve been thinking lately that I may have no choice other than to get a job in a factory somewhere.  I’d be doing a job standing up which will kill my back.  I apply constantly to customer service, data entry, call center positions… Any desk job that I can do.  No phone calls.  No interviews.  Nothing.   I will be eating ibuprofen, aleve & the tramadol I am prescribed like candy to do it.  I don’t want to think of the pain I’ll be in, but I’ll have to just deal with it.  The tramadol is the only “pain killer” I can get since no PM doctors will help me with real pain medicine since I don’t have insurance.  They don’t do much good.  They kinda dull the pain to where I can stand up about 5 minutes before I have to sit down for a few minutes.  It’s better than nothing I guess.

The place that I’m working at now is managed by the most irritating people.  I’m serious when I say that EVERYONE working here has told me that the manager, & assistant manager, are both “crazy”, “stupid”, & are “liars”.  We have a staff of less than 15 people, so I when I say everyone…I mean EVERYONE that works for them.  I don’t know how much more of this place I can take.


Job Hunting

As we all know, I don’t have internet at home.  So, I job hunt through the CareerBuilder app on my iPhone & on the computer when I’m at work.  I apply for jobs daily.  What kills me is that I have WONDERFUL typing skills.  The results of the last typing test I took?  11,800 words per hour.  I am good with multi-line telephones.  10 key by touch.  I can copy, fax, file stuff.  I have 13+ years of customer service experience.  I have moderate experience with Word & Excel.  So, WHY do I need to have a Bachelor’s degree to get a job doing these same things??????   I’ve been doing this stuff for 10+ years!!!!  “Must have Bachelors degree” or “Must have 4 year degree”

For call center jobs… it’s  “MUST have a MINIMUM of 6 months experience in a call center environment.”   Ok, um, I worked the PBX office in a casino (Hotel, casino, food & beverage – 6 restaurants, & racing office).   Not to mention at a staffing service, I just took Call Center typing & Call Center listening tests & scored 95-97% on both.  So, Why can’t I get a call center job????    HOW ARE YOU SUPPPOSED TO GET CALL CENTER EXPERIENCE IF THEY *ONLY* HIRE PEOPLE *WITH* EXPERIENCE?!?!?!?!  What, do call center people live forever?  They must have found the fountain of youth, because if you *MUST* have call center xp to get a call center job that means they are not hiring people without it… So, people with call center xp aren’t kicking the bucket.


I applied for 2 jobs the other day.   I’m REALLY hopeful I get hired on at Company A.  It’s full time & provides insurance/benefits.  I want to follow up with the hiring manager there, however, I have no idea when she will be in.  I popped in the day I applied & spoke with the manager of the store.  He said he doesn’t do the hiring… Their district managers do that, & she’s in there 2-3 days a week.  Company A doesn’t list their phone number, so I can’t call to see when she’ll be in.  I wanted to pop in today after I got off of work, however my black shirt is all dirty from pancake batter that I have to mess with every day at work.  So, I’m going to have to go home, change & drive all the way back here.  *sigh*  I hate living in a small, po-dunk, out of the way, 1 horse town.  -_-

I just read the website of the other company I applied for… & now I’m not so sure I want to work there.  It all depends on the pay.  I’d have to work an average of 60 hours per week.  & I’d be about 50/50 standing.  With my back that’s  not good.  I mean I’d deal with it as best as I could until I got insurance if the pay was really good… But the more I read the more nervous I get about that job.  It’s a good company, but I’m not sure how well I would be able to handle that job.  =/

No Insurance? Fuck off.

First of all, let me apologize ahead of time for the picture at the bottom of this post.  I do believe in God & Jesus, but I’m not very religious.  This picture, however, pretty much embodies the message I’m trying to get across.  Doctors (Jesus) are supposed to be caring individuals about their patients.  So, again, sorry if it offends anyone.


Now….I don’t know if this is just in the state of Ohio, or if this is nation wide, but apparently if you don’t have health insurance, pain management doctors will not help you.  Hell, even general MDs won’t help with pain management.  Trying to find a pain management doctor for my back pain is going nowhere.  I’m running into a brick wall every time.  I have no isnurance.  All I hear is “No, sorry.  We don’t take self pay patients.”  Apparently they tack the Hippocratic Oath on their wall & forget about it.


I swear to fulfill, to the best of my ability and judgment, this covenant:

I will respect the hard-won scientific gains of those physicians in whose steps I walk, and gladly share such knowledge as is mine with those who are to follow.

I will apply, for the benefit of the sick, all measures [that] are required, avoiding those twin traps of overtreatment and therapeutic nihilism.

I will remember that there is art to medicine as well as science, and that warmth, sympathy, and understanding may outweigh the surgeon’s knife or the chemist’s drug.

I will not be ashamed to say “I know not,” nor will I fail to call in my colleagues when the skills of another are needed for a patient’s recovery.

I will respect the privacy of my patients, for their problems are not disclosed to me that the world may know. Most especially must I tread with care in matters of life and death. If it is given me to save a life, all thanks. But it may also be within my power to take a life; this awesome responsibility must be faced with great humbleness and awareness of my own frailty. Above all, I must not play at God.

I will remember that I do not treat a fever chart, a cancerous growth, but a sick human being, whose illness may affect the person’s family and economic stability. My responsibility includes these related problems, if I am to care adequately for the sick.

I will prevent disease whenever I can, for prevention is preferable to cure.

I will remember that I remain a member of society, with special obligations to all my fellow human beings, those sound of mind and body as well as the infirm.

If I do not violate this oath, may I enjoy life and art, respected while I live and remembered with affection thereafter. May I always act so as to preserve the finest traditions of my calling and may I long experience the joy of healing those who seek my help.

—Written in 1964 by Louis Lasagna, Academic Dean of the School of Medicine at Tufts University, and used in many medical schools today.

So, I guess what that means is someone without health insurance isn’t a human being, & doesn’t deserve to get the same health care that someone who is LUCKY enough to have insurance can get.

No Go Doc

I meant to post this a few weeks ago, but I’ve forgotten.   I posted in “36 to 80 in 2 seconds” about finding a promising pain management (PM) doctor that seemed promising.  Well, the ortho doc *did* give a referral, however, the PM doc doesn’t take self pay patients….  I am one of the MANY americans out there that *DO NOT* have health insurance.  My job does not provide it.  I cannot afford it.  I wish I had it.  So, I’m still looking for a PM doctor.

36 to 80 in 2 seconds.

So, I have a slipped disc…& sciatica.

It’s very painful.  As soon as I stand up I’m in pain.  Forget about me walking very far.  I’m like an 80 year old.  I either have to use the electric carts, or lean over the shopping cart & walk uber slow…  It.  Sucks.

As mentioned in my first post on here I lost a job because I couldn’t stand up as much as they wanted me to.  I tried to get unemployment, but they let me go just after 3.5 months.  Boy I was pissed off.  I did my job just fine.  That was the reason they let me go.  Because I had to stand up for guests.  Told them in the interview I had a back problem.  “That won’t be a problem.  Just stand up as much as you can.”  Uh huh…Well, I did that to the best of my ability.  But when we’re uber busy & no doctors in the state of Ohio want to prescribe pain pills (apparently there’s a horrid drug abuse problem in this part of the country – among other places.)  I’m so sorry, but I need to sit my big ass down!  I sat up front, answered 90% of the phone calls, dealt with 90% of our guests, & did most of the work that needed to be done.  My coworker (who is fat & lazy – I can call him fat because as I also mentioned in my first post am fat too – sat in the back most of the night either watching tv or playing on his laptop.)

I’ve seen 5 separate doctors about my back.  None of them want to prescribe anything to help with the pain.  It’s not like I want to abuse them!  Drug test me weekly, do pill counts, whatever, I don’t care… I don’t abuse drugs.  I mean LOOK AT MY FUCKING X-RAYS PEOPLE.  YOU ARE DOCTORS.  You should see that I ACTUALLY have a legitimate problem.   I have chronic pain!!!!!!!!   They all want me to lose weight.  They “prescribe” physical therapy & exercise.  Standard doctor response, “your weight isn’t helping your back problem.”  Well, no shit Sherlock!  In order to lose weight, one has to exercise.  Well, as soon as I stand up I’m in so much pain I can hardly stand it.  I am too poor at the moment to join a gym with a bike machine so I can exercise sitting down.  I don’t own a bike.  Even if I could afford to buy one, I don’t have the room to store it in the house.  Someone would steal it if it were outside.  So, how the fuck am I supposed to lose weight?  Believe me… If I could wave a magic fairy wand over myself &  *POOF*  lose 160lbs… I WOULD!   But, it doesn’t work that way.

The last doctor I saw was an Orthopedic surgeon at the Ortho center in Columbus.  I figured, “Hey!  Here’s a doctor that specializes in this sort of thing!  He will *surely* understand my back pain &  *H E L P* me!!!!!”  Ummm…No.  Another Rx for physical therapy. “Which is quite expensive” his receptionist told me.  I told her I have no insurance & can’t afford that.  I paid $135 for him to tell me the exact same thing that the ER doctor (who ordered the above x-ray) told me.  Was I pissed off?  Quite a bit.  I asked if I could get anything for pain, but he doesn’t prescribe anything unless he does surgery on you.  So, I asked for a referral to a pain management clinic.  They aren’t taking new patients.  *sigh*  So, I DID get out of the receptionist that if I find a PM clinic that I want to go to they will refer me there.  I did an internet search & found one that seems promising.  All the clinics in this area (except that one) I’ve found online all want to give an epidural for this sort of thing.  I’m sorry, but I’m not too keen on sticking a needle into my spine on a regular basis.  I’d like to avoid the potential for paralysis as much as I can.  K?  Thanks!

So, how about a little help in the pain management department so I CAN get off my fat ass, exercise & maybe… just possibly… function like a normal human being huh?